There has been more light...
If you've been following my monthly newsletter you may recall that the subject of my last newsletter was the darkest day of the year. In a literal sense it was the darkest day of the year; the Winter Solstice. Coincidentally (or maybe not), it was also the height of a dark time for my family and I. In that, I felt connected to the many people who, for one reason or another, find the holidays to be lacking in the good cheer that we're all "supposed" to be experiencing. Maybe you are one of those people. If so, my parting wish for us both was that the Winter Solstice would mark the end of the darkest days and that every day after would be filled with more light; that, in this particular way, our internal world would reflect the change taking place in the external world. And I left you with THAT--in the middle of the holiday, no less--kind of a downer. But since we're talking about the dark and the light, and the days are getting longer and the sun is out, I thought I'd give you an update. For our family, at least, things did seem to get brighter after that. Oriah has received ten weekly chemo sessions so far. Now it switches to one chemo session every three weeks for another fifteen weeks. Whenever we go in, the doctors want to know if she's experiencing any of the plethora of nasty side effects that chemotherapy is infamous for. Amazingly, it appears that Oriah has largely avoided any of these so far, though she did lose some hair, but she doesn't notice. There does seem to be some disruption to her appetite, but we're not actually sure if that's the chemo or because she's 18 months old, could be both. But, in general, she's really happy and very vibrant. This brings up a point: for all intents and purposes, she should be miserable right now, but she's not. This just goes to show that it's belief that puts the real in reality. She doesn't have all the stories about how awful this is supposed to be like the rest of us, and therefore is not affected the way we would expect her to be. I'd say there's something important there for everyone. And we're not out of the woods yet. I'm quite certain that the prayers and love that you've been sending are also an important part of why she's doing so well. So if you could keep sending love and praying that things continue to go as smoothly as they have, we would appreciate that very much. And thanks so much to those who have contributed to Oriah's crowdfunding page. Your generosity is humbling. So where ever you were on the continuum, I hope that things have gotten brighter for you, as well. If they haven't yet, hang in there, it's the law of Nature that everything changes. In the mean time, commit to feeling that which the darkness brings forth from you. Trust. Every nanosecond that you can allow yourself to do those two things, you are being purified; the less you'll have to deal with the next time it gets dark and the more light you'll have access to all the time. Sincerely, Jay
